Welcome to my story. I’m so glad you’re here! There are 13 posts in this series, and I will update the links as I post them:
- Memories of Divine Light
- Remembering: El Shaddai
- Descent into Darkness
- Brush with Death
- Visions of Glory and Bliss
- Miraculous Healings
- Chasing Supernatural Experiences
- When my World Caved In
- Understanding: It’s All About Love
- Rebirth Into Divine Love
- You Are Eternally Loved
I invite you to come along with me as I share my memories of brilliant light and unbelievable love, my descent into darkness and depression, and my reconnection and rebirth into Glorious Love. Mine is a story of supernatural experience intermingled with beautiful and broken humanity, the story of a spiritual awakening, of finding and reconnecting with a love I forgot existed, the story of an explosive, incomprehensible light that fills, awakens, heals, connects, animates, empowers, and spills out of every crevice of your being. This is part 13 of my story.
Since my rebirth into divine love at the age of 29, my life has been beautiful. It has been absolutely, completely, unbelievably beautiful.
Don’t get me wrong, I still deal with the challenges of life. What’s different now is me. I am full of love inside. I am full of joy. I am at peace.
I feel as if I have an endless source inside me that supplies whatever I need in whatever moment I need it: energy, strength, physical or emotional healing, joy, peace, guidance, understanding, and most of all, love.
The circumstances of my life have not changed, but my life has changed, completely. Before my life felt limiting, stressful, frustrating. Now, every day is full of endless potential and limitless joy. I am so so happy.
I hear the love of God again in the whisper of the trees and the song of the birds. I feel it in the wind on my face. I see it in my babies’ eyes, and hear it in my husband’s laughter. I feel it in the arms of my loved ones.
I hear it in my four-year-old’s voice when he tells me he loves me, see it in my six-year old’s excitement. I feel it in loving gestures done for me by family and strangers alike. I experience it in the compassion displayed by so many around me. I see it in the growth opportunities of life’s hardships, in the challenges I face every day. I see it in the exquisite strengths, weaknesses, and flaws of those around me.
All of life is a song of love from God to us. It’s the reason we’re here, to learn how to love. We first learn love by receiving it so that it can purify us, heal us, and transform us into it’s [His] image.
We first learn love by receiving it so that we know it and can give it back.
Life is simple to me now. There are two truths that I live by: I am loved, and I am love. That’s it. I say them, I think them, I feel them, I believe them, I live them.
I am loved, with an infinite ocean of love by an all-powerful, all-consuming God who holds me securely in his everlasting embrace.
I have come here to learn about his love, to reconnect with his love, and to be a vessel of his love to the world. I am a manifestation of his love. The Bible says I am created in his image and for his glory. That means that I, myself, am a part of the brilliant, beautiful, living light from my memories. Through Jesus, I experience oneness with that light, that love, here in the physical world [More on Jesus and the salvation experience here].
I know who I am. I have fully embraced my memories of divine light and glory, the ones that haunted me for years and drove me to seek out spiritual experiences. But now I have no need of an outside experience. I have the ocean of love in my heart. My connection to the living, brilliant God of Love is alive and well inside me. Those aren’t just nice religious sayings. They are reality. They are something I can feel, something that is real, even in life’s hardships.
I know that I have come here to earth for a purpose: to love God and love others, and through it all to grow, to be purified, to be changed into the image of God I was designed to be. The loving God part is what the Bible calls “salvation” or being “born again,” in which our relationship with God is restored and we learn to “abide in him” or become one with him. The loving others is simply allowing that beautiful, beautiful light to flow out of us and change our world so that someone else can come to know God too.
And the reason I’m writing my story – the reason I’m writing this blog – is because I want you to know that this is all true of you.
You are loved, with an infinite ocean of love by an all-powerful, all-consuming God who holds you securely in his everlasting embrace.
You have come here to learn about his love, to reconnect with his love, and to be a vessel of his love to the world, to grow, to be purified, to be transformed. You are a manifestation of his love. The Bible says you are created in his image and for his glory. That means that you, yourself, are a part of the brilliant, beautiful, living light from my memories. Through Jesus, you can experience oneness with that light, that love, here in the physical world.
It’s not just a nice religious saying. You really can have heaven on earth. You really can be satisfied. You really can be healed. You can be deeply, magnificently, ridiculously happy. You can be purified. You can be transformed. You can be made holy, and made whole, which are one and the same thing.
You are loved, and you are love. It’s that simple. Let all the rest go. It will change your life.